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u know those times when...

Sat, 03 Jan 2009 01:47:27 GMT

you just want to bash your head against the wall? cuz everything just seems to be turning out wonderfully wrong and it's like watching a fascinating train wreck only you're stuck in it -_- i rlyrly need to learn how to do this organizing thing

on the bright side, college apps are done. can't say i did my best on them but they're done and that's all that matters.

another year, another life

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 21:02:10 GMT

Since I'm gonna go to a party soon, I should say this now

HAPPY NEW YEAR!~

Wow, I still remember my post last year, when I made "resolutions" and stuff. As expected, I didn't really follow it but I feel a lot happier now. But that might just be because I'm almost done with college apps fweeee~
Hope you all start the new year well, and that we can continue to grow together!

'Tis the Season~

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 22:17:14 GMT

Merry Christmas!!!!! I hope all of you lovelies have a wonderful day, and if you don't celebrate Christmas, it doesn't hurt to remember that we should always be kind and loving to others. Speaking of Christmas and gifts, one of my friends knows I love Dongbang and he even like fanboyed to me about Doushite. So he and my other friend came over Tuesday to hang out and he brought me a gift. I opened it this morning and it's the 2009 desk calender guys. I wish he was here so I could hug him lol.
I'm off to buy late Christmas gifts for people (sorry honeys better late than never?!) and to visit my grandfather's grave. Toodles!

I LOVE YOU ALL <333

if you are chilly / here take my sweater / your head is aching / i'll make it better

Sun, 16 Nov 2008 22:14:06 GMT

so i really don't know what's going on right now. in any case, the fire here in Diamond Bar seems to be dying down and it doesn't seem to be coming over in my direction anymore. basically, though, if we need to evacuate, we will. our stuff's all packed and ready to go in the cars. apparently my area is supposed to have a mandatory evacuation but, u know, my whole cul-de-sac is kinda just hanging around. none of us really want to leave unless we really have to. it's funny though, as i was packing the things i packed were, in this order: iPod/charger, dongbang, suju, shinee, big bang cds, my pet rock (which i still have not named, vania! D:) school text books, sentimental jewelry (i.e. stuff i bought on my trips to europe), teacher recommendation letter for college (...-_-''), laptop, old photo albums, violin and music, clothes, and shoes. i didn't even have the presence of mind to pack toothbrush and stuff. and i wouldn't have packed clothes if my mom hadn't told me to. sigh this is all so confusing but apparently we should be alright. hm i should go do math hw now. i think school might be cancelled though, because it's being used as the evacuation center? and this could mean i have an excuse to skip cymo rehearsal :O cause goodness knows i need to get my college apps/essays done

oh and also, i don't really wanna discuss it, but mkmf. i'm so incredibly proud of the boys for getting the most awards even though they haven't been active in korea for almost two years. that is an attest to both their popularity and their talent. best album? come on. that's amazing, especially with all the competition this year. and i hope people don't go around bashing other groups, because seriously, that would just be stupid. honestly, at first i was a little miffed that the boys didn't get other daesangs but then i thought about it and realized that to us, the boys are always promoting and being busy, but to the korean music industry, they've been virtually absent this whole time. so of course they don't "deserve" to get things like best artist, because they just had their comeback at the end of the year. i really think best album was the most meaningful award they could have received. best group or artist would have just proven their popularity, but best album shows that all the blood, sweat and tears they invested in this paid off. and also SHINee yay! i'm so happy for these boys, they totally deserved it. they're abso-frickin-lutely adorable, talented, and hardworking. not to mention the fact that it's so good to see that they look up to their sunbaes and always speak of them respectfully, with a kind of awe. and they're all such cute little fanboys.

cuz on a scale of one to ten this shit is a thousand

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 05:45:30 GMT

OBAMA.

Take that and shove it up your conservative religious asian arses. Can you tell I don't really agree w. the views of my friends and their families? :]

Right now, this is the part where you surrender / These are the things that I remember

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 00:31:50 GMT

SEH-LUH-BUH-RAE-SHUN

WELCOME TO MY JOURNAL CHRISTINA, CHRISTINE AND JESSICA.
LOL idek if you guys will check your f-list and see this but w.e. math and bio are killing me right now and i need a reason to be happy. jessica if you read this, do you know where the e problems are for math hw?!
also
HEY DON'T BRING ME FRIKKIN DOWN. I LOVE IT. AND IT'S UP FOR PREORDER. BUT IDK WHICH VER TO GET. PROBABLY THE ONE WITH THE POSTER. aslkfgdjhksjslkjg
also
boy!problems wtf self and no it's not andrew D:

using freakishly glowing taemin icon bc i kinda feel the way he looks ~~bnr i just like that he looks SHINee 8D~~

Tiffo~~~

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 01:16:10 GMT

Happy birthday to youuuu Happy birthday to youuuuuu Happy birthday dear Tifffffoooooooooo Happy birthday to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~~~

Look Yunho says, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIFFOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!" 8)b

May all your wishes come true on this loveliest of all days, and here's to looking forward to yet another year of life, love, and laughter. U know honey, people are like cheese. They just keep getting better with age :D
I love you so much Tiffo and I'm so grateful I was able to meet such an amazing and delightful person like you. Thank you for being a friend and a wonderful person!
Much love,
Audrey

Just poppin' in to say...

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 00:42:29 GMT

What's crackalackin babes :]

I have yet to start on my summer hw
I need to do sat hw
I should read my sociology book
Permit test Friday ._.
I really should start thinking about colleges and the like

the only thing I'm thinking about right now is Twilight.....as in, the book soon to be movie Twilight. and how badly i want to read New Moon and Eclipse and reserve Breaking Dawn. curses. and here I thought I would have no distractions *flails* this sucks. ~~bnr i just like whining~~
and one of my friends likes sj-h and cooking cooking, another watched the hug and o-jbh mvs, and another was mildly fangirling with me about doushitte, like we were talking about the pv and the song and everything. oh, and did i mention they are all guys :Db

....and. I wanna dye my hair. I was thinking maybe reddish burgundy but then I thought oh heck and now, now I really wanna do blonde. Like so-blonde-it's-almost-white blonde ._. idk guys, it's sounding really appealing right now, and my mom and christine were both like maybe something dark, but not a light color, it'll make you look cheap. thanks for stifling my need to be unique, ily too :| and this happened last time, i was like i wanna cut my hair short and christine was like OMG NO YOU CAN'T!!!!!11!!!! and i was like O.O but i did anyway and she was like hey i like it it looks good and i was like -_- and i mentioned that to her and she was like you can cut your hair all you want but don't dye it blonde and she asked this other girl and that girl was like, if you wanna do blonde, maybe do the bottom half, and i told her but everyone does that, it's boring and she was all idk i think asians don't look good with blonde and i was thinking hello do you not see all the asian stars doing blonde, though i do admit, they are usually boys and have stylists. BUT. Chris from Battle has blonde hair, and his hairstyle is kind of like mine, so I figure I should just go for it and let the people stare :] the blonde dye probably won't even make it blonde, more like brown or smth -_-

oh and i forgot to mention. the girl in front of me in comp class, she looks like maybe a freshman or sophomore, but one day i was looking at her screen out of boredom and i realized she was reading fic. not just any fic. slashfic. 8) oh the joys of knowing another person that likes slash :] and i saw her searching for stuff on lj hee. i would talk to her but that class is so quiet it's like a graveyard :X
~~this post was only supposed to be about how i like twilight and can't get anything done bc of it and how i wanna dye my hair ._.~~

Let's go to the car / I wanna kiss you underneath the stars

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 08:33:13 GMT

uhm. SuRi is my new OTP. ~~bnr, Yoosu forever~~ but seriously, scribete's SuRi is so awesome I could cry :|
and what does the Zhoumi icon have to do with this, you ask? Not much, really, except that he's happy, and SuRi makes me happy, so in my mind, it all works out :]b

만약에, 니가 온다면... idk what to do with myself D:

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 07:42:18 GMT

I realize I don't really go to church and all but...
DEAR LORD, IF TVXQ IS REALLY GOING TO HOLLYWOOD BOWL, PLEASE HELP ME TO WORK HARD IN MY STUDIES SO THAT I MAY CONVINCE MY MOTHER TO LET ME GO SEE THEM. PLEASE. Thank You?

...I think I'm going crazy gaiz, if I find out I could have seen them and for whatever reason missed out...I feel like I would cry, srsly ;-;

While watching Ep.9 of EHB...

Tue, 22 Jan 2008 07:03:49 GMT

mom: That guy and that guy look alike.
me: Who?
mom: Shiwon and Choikang Junsu

ohgod. I thought I was going to die for laughing so much. mommy, you may decry fandom as the reason I get distracted from school, but you're really a fan~~girl~~ lady. i'm actually quite pleasantly surprised she remembered that much, it's not like I tell her their names on a regular basis. :D

From the heart, mind and soul of Audrey...

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 08:36:01 GMT

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!! Much love to y'all, and may the new year bring happiness. Let's make this year better than the last. <3

Having said that, my resolutions:
1. Stop procrastinating. (This one is gonna be hard)
2. Learn the meaning of hard work and dedication.
3. Be a better daughter, friend, person.
4. Not to live every day as if it were my last, but to be able to look back on each day without feeling as if I've wasted it.
5. Laugh. Love. Live.

I'm not gonna go into details of my boring life, but let's just say that late '06-early '07 was not the best time for me. So I'm really looking forward to having a fresh start, where I can just make myself into a better person. iOjala que pueda mejorarme en el Ano Nuevo! 새해복 많~이 바드세요! I don't even know if I spelled that right...eh oh well.

Love,
Audrey Bae

Music is a cruel friend

Fri, 28 Dec 2007 08:32:03 GMT

NSMENDGF JKDRHRTGAHTFGNFJHNJKFHGFNSJDBFJKBGARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
WHAT THE HECK I KNOW YOU WANT ME TO BE ALL CRAZY AT VIOLIN BUT THIS IS GOING A LITTLE TOO FAR. I know I suck and I have no talent and I'm rebellious and all that sh**, but did you ever think that maybe, just MAYBE, the way I do things could be right for me? I don't think there's only one right way to do things, and I'm pretty sure the way I hold my bow isn't "omg the worst posture ever" or something. And cut the dramatic cr**, you think you're the only one that deserves pity here? Did you ever stop to imagine how it must be like for me? It ain't always peachy-keen having everyone think you're so good at violin when the truth is that you never practice and that it's hard to feel the music and get carried away with it. But saying that I can't even listen is wrong. I listen, I even try to follow, but I never quite understand, and it doesn't even work out for me. You always say, hold your bow like this. I try to imitate what you do, and you say no, not like that. And since I obviously am too dull to figure out what it is you want me to do, you try to twist my hand into some unnatural shape so you think the way I hold my bow is the same as everyone else that you've seen play violin. Well guess what, I DON'T CARE WHAT EVERYONE ELSE DOES, IF IT HURTS MY HAND, I'M NOT GOING TO FREAKIN DO IT. This is going beyond the old phase of "My arms hurt from holding the violin, I don't wanna play", I'm saying my hand HURTS because it's being made to do what I can't physically do. I don't even know what you're trying to make me do, all I know is that when I try to do it, my playing becomes uglier. You say see, that was already a lot better, since you did what I told you to do. WTF YOU DO NOT EVEN PLAY VIOLIN OR ANY OTHER STRING INSTRUMENT. DO NOT THINK YOU CAN TELL ME WHAT IS RIGHT AND WHAT IS WRONG BASED ON WHAT YOU HAVE SEEN FROM ALL MY FRIENDS. I believe there is no right or wrong, as long as it works, then it should be fine. Everytime you hear me play you get frustrated, but everytime you start to scold me, my intonation gets worse, and my fingers are clumsier. You think I always play that way or something, well you know what? I'm going to practice and go to that da** audition just to show you that I can, and that I want to. It doesn't matter if I make it or not, what matters is that I try and show you and everyone else what I'm made of. So what if I don't make it and Gimin and Jonathan and Mark and Allison and everyone else makes it? That shouldn't matter to you, right? Since you're not the one playing, it's me that has to go through the shame of people saying that I don't deserve to be concertmaster. So stop the theatrics and just stay out of my business, like you said you would. We'll see if you can actually stop caring this time. 내일은, 내가할깨, 그러니깐, 네일이나 잘해.

This is why I love these boys...

Wed, 26 Dec 2007 23:43:21 GMT

What the heck Eunhyuk, I did not know you could sing like that O.o, and they all have great vibrato :] And at the end of Teuk's part, he makes this face like he smells something....unpleasant XD

And then-there's this

When I first heard this without watching the video, I thought, ok it's good.... But I watched the perf. and OH MY GOSH. And the only thing I can really think of right now, is that I love these guys so much - other than that, I can't think of anything else that would make sense.

-_- I'm so lazy la~

Wed, 26 Dec 2007 06:53:12 GMT

OK I know Christmas is probably over and done with for most of you guys, but......

MERRY CHRISTMAS!~

Well, now that that's done with. :D I hope that even if you guys don't celebrate Christmas, your days are filled with cheer and love. Thank you guys all for being such great people, really, it's nice to know there are some people out there that are kind without prejudging others.

Also, this marks the fourth year anniversary of 동방신기! Four years of love, laughter, tears, and family. i know that I've really only gotten into the boys about a year ago, but what a difference a year makes. To the boys: You've changed my life for the better, you are the reason I go on sometimes, you are my motivation to work harder, look higher, and reach further. I know that no matter how down and out I feel, you boys make me feel better. Even in the years to come, please continue to smile for us, your fans. I truly love each and every one of you boys, you light up my life and give a whole new meaning to the words love and dedication.

Oh gosh, I'm getting all sentimental now....and I'm starting to feel all warm and fuzzy inside :]
Ah my mom thinks EHB is funny! I will convert her into a SuJu fangirl yet :] Which reminds me, I've been falling into the SuJu, Big Bang, and Girl's Generation fandoms recently. I can't help it, G-Dragon is just too cute >.< Oh and Ep. 6 of EHB....let's just say I love the Chinaman. :D
LOVE YOU ALL!~

On a clear day you can see Forever, on a cloudy day you can see Reality.

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 09:03:05 GMT

OMG Procrastination ftw....>.< I'm so bad :[
Oh well, I've been wanting to do one of these for a while, but never found the time so....yeah :/

Taken from vicvickyrox

RULES:
1. Put Your itunes, windows media player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name
5. Tag as many people in your F-LIST as possible!

If someone says "is this okay?" you say:
Dreams Come True - CSJH the Grace [...what??]

What do you like in a guy/girl?
술이야 - Vibe [...I like guys that drink their troubles away?! the heckk?]

How do you feel today?
1st Love - MC Mong [ok I guess this isn't that bad...I feel happy then?]

What is your life's purpose?
Choosey Lover (Shibuya Sun Mix) - DBSK [...I don't even know what to say...I want to find a chossey lover, or be one?....>.>]

What is your motto?
The (After) Life of the Party - Fall Out Boy [O.O'']

What do your friends think of you?
Touch the Sky Ft. Lupe Fiasco - Kanye West [I dream big? :D]

What do you think of your parents?
Gotta Do - Ivy [I have to deal with them?]

What do you think about very often?
Beverly Hills - Weezer [hahahaha I want to be rich lol]

What is 2 + 2?
미안한 마음 - Wonder Girls [LOL I don't want to do 2+2 anymore :]]

What do you think of your best friend?
Choosey Lover -R.Yamaki's Groove Mix- - DBSK [What is it with the Choosey Lovers?! :P Then again, it doesn't specify which best friend...but that's still kinda weird.]

What do you think of the person you like?
Material Girl - Madonna [uhm...I like guys??]

What is your life story?
Wonder Boy - Super Junior [I swear, this quiz WANTS me to be the opposite sex =-=. Other than that, I like this one, since the song talks about being yourself and all that jazz.]

What do you want to be when you grow up?
경복궁 Jig - 2nd Moon [Great, now I'm a JIG?!]

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Beautiful One - Kim Sang Hun [Thankfully something normal, I would have died if it was Choosey Lover again XD]

What will you dance to at your wedding?
My Destiny - DBSK [Aww the title sounds so sweet, but...the song itself is kinda sad, isn't it? ._.]

What will they play at your funeral?
Still Take You Home - Arctic Monkeys [WTF They're going to carry my dead body HOME?! Of course, if I was sane, I would take home to mean like Heaven or something.]

What is your hobby/interest?
I Slept With Someone In Fall Out Boy And All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me - Fall Out Boy [....So my hobby is to sleep with guys in F.O.B. (LOL Pete Wentz) and have songs written about me and cheap perfume....greaaat, that's just peachy -_-]

What is your biggest fear?
Trashed & Scattered - Avenged Sevenfold [ok this is actually kinda accurate, I don't want to be left behind and forgotten]

What is your biggest secret?
사랑 스러워 - Kim Jong Kook [uhhh...My secret is that I'M loveable, or I think someone ELSE is?...I prefer me XD]

What do you think of your friends?
Imaginary - Evanescence [The first song I got was something from a live CD by Jay Chou...I think, I couldn't read it, so I just skipped to the next song :P...But my friends are imaginary....??? omg how sad I'm actually a loner :[]

What is your motto?
Somewhere Only We Know - Keane [Wasn't this one already asked?? But anyway, this doesn't make sense....at least not to me]

....I need to learn how to lj-cut....*fail* I'm tagging anyone who is bored and needs something to do :] Like me hahaha

훌라 훌라 babeh~ :D

Sat, 03 Nov 2007 03:36:52 GMT

What kind of Day at School would you have with DBSK? by Melody
Melody
Name/Username
You walk to school with	Max
In front of the school, you see...	Xiah
Coming to school by...	Coming out of the Sewers.
He...	Waves to you
In homeroom the person who walks in late is...	Xiah
You greet him. He...	Nods but doesn't say anything
Later that day, in your pocket you find...	A love letter
From...	Unknown
You...	Say "Cool!"
You go to your locker but find...	Yunho trying to break your combination
You ask what he's doing, he...	Greets you
You both end up going to the caf. together and see	Max
He...	Offers you candy
You...	Say no
You sit down with the person/people with you but..	Micky
and...	Xiah
start to...	Greet you
You return to your locker...	With a grin
You find a love note in your locker from...	Hero
You...	Panic!
In your last class...	Xiah
Asks	"Wanna be friends?"
You answer...	Sorry, no
At the end of the day outside...	Yunho
Asks...	"Do you love me?"
You answer...	Maybe...
He some how ends up walking you home and...	Asks "Please forgive me for everything I've done, I love u!"
After, you say...	"Me too!"
Suddenly the other DBSK members pop out saying...	Don't do it!!
THEY FIGHT! The person left standing is...	Max
He walks you home, but yells at the other guys...	You guys are weaker than I though =.=
You both are now standing at your door. He...	Runs away!
When you're inside, you...	Think 'I HATE MY LIFE!'
You thought this quiz was...	AWESOME!!!

Cuz every fangirl should know what a day with DBSK would be like :]
This made me a bit sad though, I can't believe I rejected Susubee and Jae XD

In other news, I need to catch up on fangirling :[ RL is making me really frustrated right now...errr :/

Has no one told you she's not breathing?

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 01:55:45 GMT

Mk so I was looking up pics for my Spanish homework, and I decided to find some TVXQ ones, because I believe that yes, TVXQ really does represent my current life XD But anyway, I found this picture...
http://cache.viewimages.com/xc/74338136.jpg?v=1&c=ViewImages&k=2&d=17A4AD9FDB9CF193FDE3AF4FFC4B70CF2D8FE4E0FE7AB645284831B75F48EF45

Other than the fact that they're hot in white, I noticed that Jae's the only one not wearing a tie :] He's like wearing...a scarf...which makes him look more casual and laid back than the others. Hehehe I don't even know why I'm posting this, I'm just bored, procrastination is ruling my life :[
Lol and I'm planning on writing about how TVXQ and SJ are an important part of my life and how they represent a part of me :D
Too bad my teacher won't read it XP

...O.O

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 04:39:07 GMT

OMG. I'm like ....asdfghjkl FRIGGIN scared right about now....:[
It's only me and my bro at home cuz my mom's having dinner with her friends, so a little bit before, my brother went to go buy food. While he was out (and I was home alone....at night) the doorbell rings. Obviously, I'm not going to answer it because I have this irrational fear that one day I'm going to open the door unsuspectingly and some stranger is going to shoot my head off >.<
I just sit here at my comp and do homework and whatnot, and the person rings the doorbell like 2 more times, but not in quick succession...more like....after a couple minutes or so. WHich means, that person is waiting....which normal people don't usually do. I know it's not my brother's or my mom's friend, cuz they would have told me. THerefore, it must be some RANDOM STRANGER trying to GET INTO MY HOUSE. ._. Ok so then my brother comes home blahblahblah no more ringing doorbell. Just in case, he checked to see if it was for advertising or something, but nothing was there.
A couple of minutes later, I get up to eat some food, and I'm heading back to my comp, and as I'm walking back, THE DOORBELL RINGS and I see some guy's head through the window at the top of my front doors. Me, being the little paranoid scared girl I am, pretend I didn't see anything and keep walking, sit down (where the guy can't see me) and resume my homework. Now, the guy not only rings the dang doorbell, but knocks on the door....like really loudly. So. Conclusion? It's obviously some questionable stranger, and I'm not going to open my door in the night, when my parents aren't home. -_-

Now I'm too scared to get up again..... :[

Super Junior helloomgwtfdayum

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 01:29:29 GMT

This is only my second post *crycry* Well, I originally wanted to post here when I wrote a fic, but laziness and school intervened :[
So I figured I should actually start POSTING in here...=-=
SO, to start things off, HELLO to Vania! and Tiffany if she ever sees this haha Because I am happy to find out that I'm not the only girl from DB that regularly spazzes about DongBang and Junsu and....their sexiness O.o haha It's nice to know I'm not alone, ~~or crazy~~ :D
Next, a spaz about SJ mostly, because their second album is out, their movie is out, they look hot and I think I'm going to die and go to fangirl heaven :X

FIrst and foremost...HOMGZ KYU IS BACK! AND HE'S BLOND!!
Anyway, I kept telling my mom to go check the video store to see if Pretty Boy Series of Terror Events or w.e. it be called -_- was out, and she called and was like Audrey it came out I borrowed it.
I thought I was going to scream -_- But I just hope there are subs....cuz I can't understand complex Korean words *fail* and I also hope my mom doesn't think I'm weird for my obsession to hot Korean boybands... ._.
So now I have to try and finish my homework so I can watch the movie....stupid hmwrk....
Now about Don't Don. Like, srsly, that song is AWESOME, like it's up there with DBSK's "O". And I'm not just biased cuz I play violin and because ~~Hankyung~~ everyone looks drool-worthy...:D
I'm planning on asking my parents if I can buy the album as my bday present. This decision came about after many days of going between Don't Don, Shine/Ride On, or waiting till the Shine photobook or All About TVXQ vol. 2 came out.... -_-
hokay, I think I'll just leave it there....

Next would be DBSK. Cuz, seriously, Ride On is killing my brain what with Chun's voice and the innuendo and why is there not a PV for this?! hahaha Avex probably wouldn't be able to make one that was safe for tv, it would be that sexy. *is shot* and they're going to collab with Koda Kumi!! *sigh* I love seeing evidence of the boys' popularity, it really makes my day ^ ^
....This is probably going to like make your guys' flists all retarded, but, yes this post was absolutely necessary. okbyenow *runs*

HI

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 19:25:41 GMT

So basically this journal was created so I could read all the great fics posted by the people in LJ. I don't really have much to say except...hii! and you might need to bear with me sometimes since I'm a total newbie at computer stuff. XD